Hopeful

My week has gone pretty well...I found out that I got an "A" on both of my writing assignments for my religion class and I got an "A" and a "B" on my two quizzes for my psych class. I'm pretty proud of myself. And I'm staying caught up and am holding a "B", so far, in my math class. I had a quiz in my math and psych classes this week, I think I did okay on them...but we'll see when I get them back. There was stuff on the psych test that I couldn't remember but I'm confident I did we'll on it here's hoping. I figure as long as I go into my test with a positive attitude, I'll do we'll on the test, I just hope this concept works.

Week 1 Winter Quarter '13

First week of Winter Quarter went well, I found out on Wednesday that I passed my math class from last quarter. I'm just hoping I didn't take more than I can handle with my classes, but I'm sure I'll do fine...just as long as I can keep up with all of the reading for two of my classes. Yesterday my math professor - who knows I'm genetically female, because I had him last quarter - called me "sir" yesterday and when he corrected himself I told him that "sir" is fine. I got one of those o_O looks, where he clearly wasn't sure why I said that, I'm debating on explaining to him why. Though I'm unsure if I should or just leave it as it is. Eh. I also got called "sir" by my religion professor three times this week :) I'm not even going to correct him, I want to see how long he uses male pronouns when referring to me.
My transition, with the testosterone injections, is going well (I think). My having to shave a week and a half ago was interesting...but the hair is finally (slowly) growing back, and its darker than it was before :) I might have to shave again in a week or so, which will be cool. I'm just waiting to shave again, to see how long it takes to grow in somemore and how dark the hair is. I'm having to watch my temper quite a bit more lately...there are days that I take an alternate rout to class, so I can avoid too many people. I had one guy accidentally bump into me and I was ready to deck him, and then when I was at the student activity center (SAC) one guy changed the channel to basketball and I nearly hit him as well, I ended up having to leave. I don't like feeling this way. I still have just under 2 months before I see the shrink about my medication, though I may see my PCP about upping one of my medications. I know that the testosterone injections are part of the aggression/anger issues, but I was told that my medication may need to be adjusted because of it. Which, at this point, I'm fine with...
I have Bug this weekend, yay!!! Though I think she's pretty tired, because she's usually out of bed by now. Eh. I'm letting her sleep, she likely needs it. Though I feel bad, because I'm going to have to work on my homework while she's here...again. I'm going to have to, next month, try to get all of my homework done before she comes for her visit. Or atleast most of it.

Life is good.

God loves me for who I am and where I'm at in my journey...
and if other people don't, then oh well.

Awesomeness

The beginning of this week started off pretty stressful, not knowing if I was going to make financial clearence or not. I had to get my math grade up from last quarter from a "IF" (incomplete "F") to a "C"...which meant catching up on all of my homework assignments from last quarter, which I did over Christmas break, and my quizzes. Down fall...I got locked out of the system and couldn't do my quizzes online. I had to get in touch with my professor and get a printed copy of each of the missing quizzes. I finally got them yesterday, and sat down for almost 5 hours to get them all done (my brain felt like mush by the time I was done). After finishing them, I had to wait until today to find out if I scored high enough to get my grade up. I showed up to the class to talk to my professor to find out if I needed to re-do any of the quizzes...he got to the class and asked me if I'd received his email, when I told him "no" he then told me that I'd passed the class. I went directly from the class to student finance to get my financial clearance finalized. I've been on "Cloud 9" over that all day. To top that off...this week I've been called "sir" twice, so far, from my religion professor - which is AWESOME!!! It's made my day each time he's done that. I ran into one of the gals that I used to work for yesterday and she'd commented that my voice has gotten deeper since last time she saw me (which was a week or two before winter break)...even more awesomeness :)

Life Is Good!!!

Stress

Things have been like a roller coaster ride lately...I had Bug for a good portion of my winter break, which was nice. I just feel bad because part of that time, I just didn't want to deal with people and so we stayed home and didn't do anything. I'm having to readjust to being back on the testosterone, and I'm on a lower dosage as well....I'm sure it won't take much time to readjust, I'm just wondering what effect the lower dosage will have, if any. Last week I spent three days (totaling ten hours) with a math tutor, and then three hours today catching up on homework assignments and quizzes for my math class from last quarter. Originally I was being given until this coming Monday, I managed to get a few extra days because of the fact that my quizzes have to be proctored. I'm hopeful that I'm able to get my grade up to at least a "C" by getting all this stuff done...otherwise it'll be time wasted. I averaged about a 95% on all of my homework, and have been averaging (approximately) a 70% on my quizzes, but homework and quizzes only account for a cumulative 30% of my grade...I'm praying that my final turned out to be a higher score than my other tests. Math is definitely not my best subject. I'm told, however, that the one math course that I have to take for my major, I might do better in...I just have to make it through the last 1/2 of the one I'm working on. I'm debating on taking a quarter off from math, but at the same time I'm worried that if I do, I'll forget what I've been working on. If I take it, I'll have to wait another year before finishing my general psychology series. *sigh* this is frustrating. I'm trying to get my general studies classes knocked out, but at the same time I'm trying to get my classes for my major knocked out as well. Aaaaaggggghhhhhhh...... This quarter is going to drive me nuts...oh wait, too late. ;) lol

....anyways. My brother suggested, a few days ago, that I shave...which had that suggestion come out of anyone else, would have been embarrassing. Gotta' love his bluntness. Which I did end up shaving and now my upper-lip feels naked...it's weird. I hope that it grows back soon. I'm sure that when it does, it'll likely be darker :) - it just seems to be taking forever to grow back (btw, it's only been two days). My new year's resolution is to be who myself, regardless to what people around me (friends and family included) think...I've gotten so tired of "tap-dancing" around other people's comfort levels. I need to do what makes me happy, which is being myself. This is not going to be an easy resolution to keep, but with going one day at a time...I'll be able to fulfill it.


"Above all else; to thin own self be true..." ~William Shakespeare