Lonely...still...

Why must life be so confusing? I just don't get it sometimes...one day things seem to be going pretty good, then the next thing I know it...things suck again. I don't know..maybe it's just me??? Things just seem to be an emotional roller-coaster lately, as my loving brother would put it "it's my borderline talking." Which is likely part of the reason I'm feeling the way I am. Who knows? I know part of it is the fact that this is the first year I've ever spent my birthday completely alone...hell, this is the longest I've ever lived alone. I've always lived with others or with others around me (Navy). Never truly alone...it's starting to really get to me, living alone. Hopefully it'll get better.